I miss you Daddy!!

SO MUCH!!!

Todays drive 'home'

This morning I took the long journey home from Comox to Kelowna, It was HARD.   Harder then I had imagined it would be.  Every time I passed a campground, fish hole, pit stop or town, memories flooded in.  The weather was gorgeous, the drive peaceful.  I had to stop quite a few times to recompose, this is one of the exits I took....how gorgeous!!

Finding Peace & Keeping busy!

It has been THE hardest week of my life!  Words cannot come close to sharing my pain, life is numb, I haven't been able to talk.   My main goal is to stay strong for mom...I have tried.  Sleep is non-exsitant, food only a necessity!  Last night at Nan's I decided I should bring out the camera and take a few photos, it is so good to stay busy right now, it calms me.

I can't believe my last post on September 10th, was the start of my journey of grieving my Papa...and now this!!!  I'm lost, there is only so much strength one person can have....or 'front' having.

My Nanny!

OK so Nanny came 'home', I know she just came to visit, but it felt like it was HOME!!!  After visiting Osoyoos, Nanny came to visit us at Veranda Beach, with all of her girls....I have that photo somewhere......and then Nanny came to spend 2 nights at our house, hang out with her great grandchildren, go to birthday parties, chill on the deck, and just be.....   Just be my nanny.... my precious, ever there, Nanny.   I told my girls about Nanny's metal valve in her heart....so they had to cuddle in and hear it...I loved the look in Nanny's eyes when she had my little beauties cuddled up on her lap, all of the love, for her beautiful great grandbabies was so apparent!  It was so much fun to watch....I remember curling up on that same lap, listening to that same heart!!!  Thank you for coming and staying with us, my beautiful nanny, nanny to so many, but your still MY Nanny ;-)))  XOXO


Here are a few photos....

 Paige showing Nanny her Report card!!

 My Nanny now wears both my Papa's wedding ring and her wedding ring around her neck.   She said to me "I know it sounds crazy but this way he is always 'with me"   My answer.... "Nanny that is not crazy, it is beautiful!"   After over 60 years of marriage!    There were so many moments that Nan twisted and turned those two rings during those three days.  Day two was their (Nan & Papa's ) anniversary...do we ignore, do we celebrate?  Ted and I twisted and turned with the decision.....and of course my most AMAZING husband was the one to 'break down', he did not want to ignore the day, he wanted to celebrate!!!!    He wished my Nanny a 'Happy Anniversary" ...Ironic, in my mind, how can it be happy?, but memories are very strong!!!!  So we celebrated the day!!!!   The girls and I got her the most amazing bouquet from the farmers market before taking Nanny for lunch.

After a dinner at Jan's house we got home to put the girls to bed...

Nanny stood out on the deck, looking up at the stars, twisting their rings that hung around her neck...I KNEW she was talking to my papa!, do I go out or stay back?.....I went out!! and embraced her in a 'grandma hug' one that she always gives me, tears stung at my eyes, my mind shut down, I was overwhelmed! I don't think I ever properly grieved my papa, I nuzzled into her neck and cried!!!  We stayed there looking at the stars, the view , knowing Papa was there.....Let the grieving begin!

Then went in for a glass of red wine, a game of cards, tears, and a few laughs!!

We miss him so much!!!  

My Nanny and ALL of her rings!!  My Nanny loves diamonds, rubies and gold!!  I LOVE this photo!!!  My papa's ring around my nanny's ring...and all of the other rings he bought her ;-)))

Elizabeth's 12 Birthday

We all had such a fun night, My SIL grew the tomato in the first photo....it was huge, and I tried to take a photo of the sheer size....however, my little helper, could not stay still!!  So there were no viable photos....Other then that we had an amazing night Nanny ventured along and Elizabeth turned 12!!!   Happy birthday to my beautiful niece!!  

Kettle Valley Trestles

Yesterday we all biked the Kettle Valley trestles, we had an amazing time!!  The weather was perfect and Bentley ran along side for the whole 3 hour trek!!!

Paige on her new bike maneuvered the trails with professional skills ;-))

Taeya had an amazing time climbing onto high peaks when we stopped to give Bentley water!

Here are a few pics from our day....

 The view from Trestle 18

 Paige and Ted coming back across trestle 17

 Water break with an amazing view

 First signs of fall!

 Exploring

 Ted's attempt at an Inukshuk ;-))

 Taeya mountain climbing

 Why do you look so nervous?

 Thats why!!!!

 Don't look down!

 Paige

 Taeya

 Nice look T ;-))

Giving Bentley some water!!